Reflection (3RD QUARTER)

A Year of Adjustments

 A Year of Surviving

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Thinking about it, this is the second-to-last reflection I have to make, and I don’t know if I should feel relieved or just indifferent. Looking back, this school year has been… weird. I can’t say it was great, but I can’t say it was completely pointless either.

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meow

I met some new people, but it’s not the same as before. I used to be so motivated, even when school was ridiculously hard. Back then, I had friends, people I actually connected with. my ex-girlfriend played a big part in that, too. Having people who made things feel lighter, who made me feel like I wasn’t just dragging myself through the days was a huge difference. But now? It’s just been a year of adjusting, of trying to keep up, of just… existing.

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Being Alone Isn’t the Same as Being Okay

I won’t pretend like I’ve been handling things perfectly. There were times I felt alone, times I wanted to just zone out from everything. But I guess the thing about loneliness is that after a while, you stop fighting it. You just let it sit there. And at some point, I accepted that this is just how things are now.

But even if it sucked, I still managed to do things on my own. I made a whole webpage from scratch something I honestly wouldn’t have thought I could pull off. I got to learn more about coding.

Would it have been easier if I had the same support as before? Definitely. But for what it’s worth, I made it through by myself.

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feeling sosyal

       Does It All Lead Somewhere?

If I had to weigh it, the bad still outweighs the good. No sugarcoating that. But maybe, just maybe, it’s leading to something. Something that, in the future, I can look back on and say, yeah, I’m glad I went through that.

Not today, not tomorrow, but someday.

For now, I’m just here, surviving. And maybe that’s enough.